Beautiful writing as always. Also, this makes me feel nostalgic for some reason though I hated every little detail about high school and would rather die than get back there, but you have a way with words that stirs the emotions. I feel this way about the university I graduated from. It’s home to me. First loves and first everything. I couldn’t let go of it whatsoever. Had to go back there for grad school just to get more of it. It’s like I was addicted to every nook and corner I experienced a bad or a good memory in. And now I teach there! I spend more hours in that place than my own house and I don’t mind it whatsoever. But your words made me feel so nostalgic for the times I was a student there and experienced everything for the first time ever. Thank you for sharing. Can’t wait to see how all you scenes and memories will play out in the show.
On a different note, I’m so happy about the High School news we got yesterday and the casting choices. Can’t wait find out more about the cast on the show. It would also be so awesome if you and Tegan had an Instagram live with the High School twins (Railey and Seazynn).
Is that the garage you went roller skating high on acid at 1am?? Hahah that's one of my favourite chapters, I hope it makes the cut!
This was a beautiful entry, I feel so privileged as a fan to be able to follow this journey with you, good luck with production and filming! Can't wait for more ❤️
sooo beautiful! as a very nostalgic person who can't resist looking at old photographs and reading old journals this really hit me. i think part of it is as someone with a fairly bad memory(other than random specific moments that stick out), the physical reminders help me prove that the past is real.
loved the line "...you are the central artery forever pumping blood to your dreams" - feels like a lyric! or maybe i just love any line about hearts and blood lol.
i can’t wait to watch this and the twins that were cast as you are freaking adorable, i’m so glad sara was relentless in her belief that they should play you. also?? freaking cobie smulders is gonna play your mom?? that’s awesome. i’m so excited and i feel like i’ve been in this journey with you not only for the last 11 years but since the early 90s (no it does not matter that i was born in 96)
This brings me so many memories and emotions. I moved around a bit as a kid. Not nearly the frequency of 21 times but significant distances. At age 10 from Michigan to California. At age 16 from California to Pennsylvania. I am reminded of the time my boyfriend (now husband) and I took a trip from Philly out to California in the very early days of our relationship. He always wanted to really see the coast and drive a length of the PCH. We ended up passing through my old town where I hadnt been in over a decade. And staying with a HS friend that I hadnt seen in almost the same length of time. We went to my highschool on a Saturday or Sunday. It was deserted. Highschools in CA arent usually one big building but a cluster of small buildings. The smell was usually that vapor of sun heating the layer of mud under the trampled thin layer of dead grass. I had so many weird emotions. I wanted to leave immediately but also linger for the rest of the day and look at every single thing. There was so much I wanted to say and explain but I knew it would be meaningless to him. And maybe some stories would have been damaging to our brand new relationship. We couldn't visit my house because I lived on an Air Force Base and you need special ID to go through the gate and we didn't have anyone to vouch for guest passes when we went to the visitor center. I was simultaneously relieved and crushed.
I cant wait to see how the show turns out. Which memories become stories. Would it be weird to try and make it a 4d experience? Like in a scene have closed captioning for the smell profile? (this hug smells like Clear Dep hair gel, clove cigarettes and Bounty dryer sheets with a hint of mildew)
This is such a beautiful post - the content (especially "Ghost Busting") and audio. I imagine the location scouting, which was really revisiting all too familiar places, was overwhelming at times, but I'm sure the excitement of having the opportunity to create new memories with the same backdrop to a degree was invigorating. Thank you for sharing.
To your point, I think "home" is wherever you feel most comfortable. For some, it's literally some physical location and for others, it's the people. For me, it is a specific geographic location (where I was born), but perhaps it's more so "times were just simpler back then", relatively speaking. Of course there was drama during that time period, but I had the luxury to be somewhat oblivious and not really have to deal with things head on.
I know it will take time to put all of this together, but I can't wait to see the TV show. =)
I can't imagine the feelings Sara had going back to those old "haunts". Knowing that's where their career truly began. I'm fortunate that I still live in the city I grew up in and can drive past the few places I lived in growing up or past the schools in the hood and remember the memories. I imagine it's different when you've been away for so long.
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This world is a strange place..You go through good things,you accumulate good memories,but as time goes on,remembering them brings with it sadness..0r you go through bad things,you accumulate bad memories, which makes you bad at that moment ,true, but the experinces over the years will make you stronger..Why we were created?To suffer?Experinces,for what?..If the world is a simulation,I don't remember participating in this simulation of my own free will..It's my family who made the decision, but I'm not mad at them..Anyway....Sara, maybe you won't believe me, but I was very moved in some places when I read the article about your life..''As I toured the High School production office, being introduced to accountants and coordinators, I felt a pang of disappointment that you weren’t there.'' this places hurt me.. Also I'm happy for you both though..I'm curious about this show too..I love you both so much and want to hug you both..😊🤗
It must be so weird to go back like that on your life and places where you lived. (Would be a nightmare for me, not because it was bad but... because it’s over, and it hurts to remember things that are gone). Anyways, I’m glad you didn’t have to eat anyone, I was very anxious after the Part 1. (And seriously it’s very cool to have the text and the audio, it helps to understand 😅 and best way to learn)
I love going on this journey with you both; especially as I’m currently reading your wonderful memoir. I am so engrossed in the book that I am carrying it everywhere with me in the hopes that I can sneak in a chapter here or there in between jobs. I also work for a production company so I understand the process that’s entailed in scouting out the perfect location. It must be so nostalgic for you to revisit these places after so long. I imagine it is bringing forth feelings and memories you had once lost along the way? I cannot wait to hear about what’s happening next and I shall be sharing your wonderful book with all my loved ones in the meantime. Have a wonderful day. ^__^
This was such an interesting read! Thank you for sharing the process of location scouting. I’m studying set design for theater so its always interesting to read about it! I was a bit nostalgic reading your post because it took me back to when I first read High School and my own time in high school years back.
I’m so excited to see/hear more about production and the casting news yesterday made me SOOO excited!!
My wife and I were just talking the other day about trying to describe smells and the nostalgia they can bring. We were trying to describe the smell of a lake we used to go to. Is it wet wood? Wet rocks? Not sure but the nostalgia was like a punch to the gut.
Very excited for your TV Show!!! I love how everything is slowly coming together. The casting news we got the other day filled with me with excitement.
When you were talking about feeling more emotion about the highschool over your home, I totally get that. I think it might be just the way our brains process information. I have one childhood home that I dream the most about, which is funny because I didn't live there long.
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It’s funny, I would probably best describe my school days as mixed. Some of it good some of it bad, but the way you write about it really does make you think and bring out lots of emotions. I can’t remember if there was one in the book but it’s nice to see a picture of the blue house having read so much about it as well. 🙂
Really beautiful post this Sara (great part 2 as well) hope everything goes well with production and filming of High School and can’t wait for more!
This is beautifully written and has so much nostalgia attached to it, the photos you included bring it to life. It's great that you were able to gain access to your childhood home and that some things remain unchanged. It must have felt weird being in your high school and childhood home without Tegan seeing as you have so many shared experiences in them but also quite surreal given the circumstances. I'm really excited to see High School come together, thanks for sharing the process!
Beautiful writing as always. Also, this makes me feel nostalgic for some reason though I hated every little detail about high school and would rather die than get back there, but you have a way with words that stirs the emotions. I feel this way about the university I graduated from. It’s home to me. First loves and first everything. I couldn’t let go of it whatsoever. Had to go back there for grad school just to get more of it. It’s like I was addicted to every nook and corner I experienced a bad or a good memory in. And now I teach there! I spend more hours in that place than my own house and I don’t mind it whatsoever. But your words made me feel so nostalgic for the times I was a student there and experienced everything for the first time ever. Thank you for sharing. Can’t wait to see how all you scenes and memories will play out in the show.
On a different note, I’m so happy about the High School news we got yesterday and the casting choices. Can’t wait find out more about the cast on the show. It would also be so awesome if you and Tegan had an Instagram live with the High School twins (Railey and Seazynn).
Is that the garage you went roller skating high on acid at 1am?? Hahah that's one of my favourite chapters, I hope it makes the cut!
This was a beautiful entry, I feel so privileged as a fan to be able to follow this journey with you, good luck with production and filming! Can't wait for more ❤️
sooo beautiful! as a very nostalgic person who can't resist looking at old photographs and reading old journals this really hit me. i think part of it is as someone with a fairly bad memory(other than random specific moments that stick out), the physical reminders help me prove that the past is real.
loved the line "...you are the central artery forever pumping blood to your dreams" - feels like a lyric! or maybe i just love any line about hearts and blood lol.
i can’t wait to watch this and the twins that were cast as you are freaking adorable, i’m so glad sara was relentless in her belief that they should play you. also?? freaking cobie smulders is gonna play your mom?? that’s awesome. i’m so excited and i feel like i’ve been in this journey with you not only for the last 11 years but since the early 90s (no it does not matter that i was born in 96)
Cobie is just a total dream! We're so excited!!!
This brings me so many memories and emotions. I moved around a bit as a kid. Not nearly the frequency of 21 times but significant distances. At age 10 from Michigan to California. At age 16 from California to Pennsylvania. I am reminded of the time my boyfriend (now husband) and I took a trip from Philly out to California in the very early days of our relationship. He always wanted to really see the coast and drive a length of the PCH. We ended up passing through my old town where I hadnt been in over a decade. And staying with a HS friend that I hadnt seen in almost the same length of time. We went to my highschool on a Saturday or Sunday. It was deserted. Highschools in CA arent usually one big building but a cluster of small buildings. The smell was usually that vapor of sun heating the layer of mud under the trampled thin layer of dead grass. I had so many weird emotions. I wanted to leave immediately but also linger for the rest of the day and look at every single thing. There was so much I wanted to say and explain but I knew it would be meaningless to him. And maybe some stories would have been damaging to our brand new relationship. We couldn't visit my house because I lived on an Air Force Base and you need special ID to go through the gate and we didn't have anyone to vouch for guest passes when we went to the visitor center. I was simultaneously relieved and crushed.
I cant wait to see how the show turns out. Which memories become stories. Would it be weird to try and make it a 4d experience? Like in a scene have closed captioning for the smell profile? (this hug smells like Clear Dep hair gel, clove cigarettes and Bounty dryer sheets with a hint of mildew)
Oh, I can't wait till 4D is a thing. I def would want the show to smell like the discontinued Club Monaco perfume I used to wear :)
This is such a beautiful post - the content (especially "Ghost Busting") and audio. I imagine the location scouting, which was really revisiting all too familiar places, was overwhelming at times, but I'm sure the excitement of having the opportunity to create new memories with the same backdrop to a degree was invigorating. Thank you for sharing.
To your point, I think "home" is wherever you feel most comfortable. For some, it's literally some physical location and for others, it's the people. For me, it is a specific geographic location (where I was born), but perhaps it's more so "times were just simpler back then", relatively speaking. Of course there was drama during that time period, but I had the luxury to be somewhat oblivious and not really have to deal with things head on.
I know it will take time to put all of this together, but I can't wait to see the TV show. =)
I can't imagine the feelings Sara had going back to those old "haunts". Knowing that's where their career truly began. I'm fortunate that I still live in the city I grew up in and can drive past the few places I lived in growing up or past the schools in the hood and remember the memories. I imagine it's different when you've been away for so long.
This world is a strange place..You go through good things,you accumulate good memories,but as time goes on,remembering them brings with it sadness..0r you go through bad things,you accumulate bad memories, which makes you bad at that moment ,true, but the experinces over the years will make you stronger..Why we were created?To suffer?Experinces,for what?..If the world is a simulation,I don't remember participating in this simulation of my own free will..It's my family who made the decision, but I'm not mad at them..Anyway....Sara, maybe you won't believe me, but I was very moved in some places when I read the article about your life..''As I toured the High School production office, being introduced to accountants and coordinators, I felt a pang of disappointment that you weren’t there.'' this places hurt me.. Also I'm happy for you both though..I'm curious about this show too..I love you both so much and want to hug you both..😊🤗
Thanks for sharing this Sara. Make me nostalgic for my time I spent at my high school, the good and the bad. 🖤
It must be so weird to go back like that on your life and places where you lived. (Would be a nightmare for me, not because it was bad but... because it’s over, and it hurts to remember things that are gone). Anyways, I’m glad you didn’t have to eat anyone, I was very anxious after the Part 1. (And seriously it’s very cool to have the text and the audio, it helps to understand 😅 and best way to learn)
I love going on this journey with you both; especially as I’m currently reading your wonderful memoir. I am so engrossed in the book that I am carrying it everywhere with me in the hopes that I can sneak in a chapter here or there in between jobs. I also work for a production company so I understand the process that’s entailed in scouting out the perfect location. It must be so nostalgic for you to revisit these places after so long. I imagine it is bringing forth feelings and memories you had once lost along the way? I cannot wait to hear about what’s happening next and I shall be sharing your wonderful book with all my loved ones in the meantime. Have a wonderful day. ^__^
This was such an interesting read! Thank you for sharing the process of location scouting. I’m studying set design for theater so its always interesting to read about it! I was a bit nostalgic reading your post because it took me back to when I first read High School and my own time in high school years back.
I’m so excited to see/hear more about production and the casting news yesterday made me SOOO excited!!
Good luck with your studies!
My wife and I were just talking the other day about trying to describe smells and the nostalgia they can bring. We were trying to describe the smell of a lake we used to go to. Is it wet wood? Wet rocks? Not sure but the nostalgia was like a punch to the gut.
Very excited for your TV Show!!! I love how everything is slowly coming together. The casting news we got the other day filled with me with excitement.
When you were talking about feeling more emotion about the highschool over your home, I totally get that. I think it might be just the way our brains process information. I have one childhood home that I dream the most about, which is funny because I didn't live there long.
It’s funny, I would probably best describe my school days as mixed. Some of it good some of it bad, but the way you write about it really does make you think and bring out lots of emotions. I can’t remember if there was one in the book but it’s nice to see a picture of the blue house having read so much about it as well. 🙂
Really beautiful post this Sara (great part 2 as well) hope everything goes well with production and filming of High School and can’t wait for more!
This is beautifully written and has so much nostalgia attached to it, the photos you included bring it to life. It's great that you were able to gain access to your childhood home and that some things remain unchanged. It must have felt weird being in your high school and childhood home without Tegan seeing as you have so many shared experiences in them but also quite surreal given the circumstances. I'm really excited to see High School come together, thanks for sharing the process!
Oh wow your house was exactly NOT how I imagined.
Lol